Hello world
I am FAT, I feel
FAT, my stomach sticks out and my cheeks are fat. I feel like a bloated all of
the time. My arms are big. I cannot get the weight off. I get a few pounds here
and there. But MAJOR WEIGHT LOSS. NOPE, and it comes back so fast!!
You see I had cancer and not only does or can
cancer kill you it stops your metabolism. I am living ok living is AWEEEESOME. However those ovaries and fallopian tubes come
out and the weight starts piling on. YEA I AM ALIVE BUT I AM FAT. I feel gross,
I fake high self esteem.
I dont step on the scale I havent I wont it petrifies me.
Those numbers, nope head in the SAND, all the way. I just stretch out my jeans then they are
bigger right? I am loosing weight? Suck
in my stomach lie to me . . . tell me I look thinner. You don’t MELISA!! Then
I dont feel so FAT but I am.
I know I am from the
rolls on my back to my stomach sticking out farther than my fake boobs. My
thighs and my kankles.
Something has got to
give. I love POTATOE CHIPS, TORTILLA CHIPS, BEAN DIP, PASTA oooh how I love
pasta and food. I like fresh good stuff. I pretend to work out. I go to the GYM
walk on the tread mill, but I dont sweat REALLY sweat. I just lie to myself
oooh I am go to the gym oohh it is my metabolism.
It is time to GET
BETTER. December 10th I will be cancer free for 5 years. It is enough no more
excuses. Time to get fit & throw away the chips clean out the cabinets.
Take my happy behind down to the farmers market, buy GOOD inexpensive fruits
and Veggies.
This is what woke me
up. The American Cancer Society Making Strides walk standing next to my 2
beautiful co-worker. You can totally see my belly. I told my boss no biggie it doesn’t
bother me I am me.
I lied it does but I will not take it down. Let EVERYONE see
and do something about it.
